living life or existing?

This is the question that I began to ponder a while back and the answer more often than not began to bother me.  God has granted me eternal life right?  And yet, it seems a lot of the time I seem accepting of a life of simple existence.  Riding the current of an all too quick stream of life with no control or idea where I am going or why.  In fact, it seems during these times my best opportunities to realize what was going on and reevaluate is when I have crashed ashore exhausted and disoriented.  It is scary how fast time passes and how little life has actually been lived.  My desire is to be living life, sensitively listening to God and following his current to experience full life.  The thing is, this is something that won't just occur by happenstance because I roll out of bed each more and wish it so.  Unfortunately, I tend to be complacent and lazy too much of the time.  Living life won't occur without effort, planning and determination.  I need to attack this type of life with the same intensity that I am forced to attack school or work.  The studying (time w/ God in prayer, scripture, meditation, etc) effort will produce the results (fulfilled life) only in accordance with the consistency, quantity & quality of that time allows.  God give me the strength to allow for that time, the determination to follow through, and the grace for myself when I fall short.